be

i am because of everything i am or am afforded. whether that be resource, opportunity, experience, ability, vision or perspective, awareness, knowledge, etc.

i do not believe in predetermined "fate" but what i feel or believe is something similar. it is about eventuality, pattern, habit, equation, odds, chance, and predictabitliy. the elements that exist create what becomes. i feel this even if i see it an impossible thing to prove or know.

i feel that i simply feel. a reaction is to express my emotion or thought by mashing tangibility. is it for reflection or for process. the former equating to intellect, the latter to instinct. i don't feel that i'm expressing for others or my indulgent self.. it is a life necessity. but i also feel a connection with my kind: humans.
i need connection. connection, reflection, feedback, interaction- with humans. especially humans that i rhyme with, connect with. i lack continually close relationships. i do not limit that to meaning spacial presence, i include mental ones too.